I have been mulling this idea over in my mind. Recently I got back on track. Very recently, like in the last week or so. I’m hoping it will stick this time. It has before because I found something that resonates with me. Well now I have something that resonates AT HOME. WOW.

Let’s start with a current standing. I have gained some weight. Sadly. It’s my own doing… At my lowest I was @135. Today I was 171.5. I like me around 148… so I want to lose about 20-25 pounds. I sadly did not stop when I got to 155 or 160 or even 165…. My highest I’ve seen since my surgery is 174. and while that’s NOT bad (my highest ever was 293) it’s NOT great since I’m a mere 5’2″.

My ankle goes out now and then, my right knee hurts pretty much every time I bend it. My right hip… well it’s on fire most of the time and it hurts a lot too. I have arthritis and degenerative disc disease which is a nice way to say my spine is collapsing on itself. Not much I can do but get strong and keep at it. I’m only 54 but there are days I feel 80. I never feel 20 any more.

So anyway… I used to go to Lifebridge Gym. I did walking and yoga 3 days a week and lifting 2 times a week. I worked with a trainer. then my back went out. Then I stopped going to yoga for several reasons. Then since I was not going to the gym regularly to save money we dropped the gym membership. Now I have NO gym membership and i have struggled with working out on my own.

I could NOT figure out why I could not get going on my own. Well in the last few weeks I have stepped up my game.

Finally, it seems to me that I’m catching on and figuring it out.

So what changed?

I have a website www.southbeachfriends.net and I have been there with some very close dear friends since 2007. Doesn’t seem that long. Anyway… they are a lovely group of women but none of them have had weight loss surgery. I was posting but not really involved. I was there but not really putting in an effort.

Then, my darling friend Nikki Masse of the infamous Bariatric Foodie website started a private group on Facebook for those of us who have experienced regain after weight loss surgery. Bless her heart (truly not in the nasty sense) she added me to the group. It made me finally Realize that was in total DENIAL that I was OUT OF CONTROL. For some reason THIS group resonated with me. The members or the situation or SOMETHING just made THIS GROUP the one I wanted to be good for. This group was the one I wanted to WIN for. And yet winning for this group means I win for myself.

I have this arm band called a GO Wear Fit. It’s by Body Media and It does all sorts of lovely things. It tells me how many steps I’ve taken and how many calories I’ve burned and how well I’m sleeping. I pay 6.95 a month for the website on this and I might as well use it to the best of my ability.

I need to track my food. I don’t like the food tracker on the Body Media Site but I LOVE the food tracker on SparkPeople. . I wanted to get my Body Media armband and Spark People talking to each other and I finally figured it out. Then I became a REALLY happy camper. I now have a way to link my favorite food record with my body measurements. Woo-hoo…

Then I realized I had to start moving more. I was getting up going to work and coming home to veg on the couch. This will NOT do. I am only 54 and i need to move more. So I started looking around ON Demand. I found Cardio Fit for Seniors by Angie Miller in the fitness area. I figured, I’m a klutz and I’m out of shape and I’m doing NOTHING so this is SOMETHING. Well This SOMETHING saved me. I am NOT sure what about this workout works for me… but it got me started… and it taught me to modify. I have learned to Modify UP AND modify DOWN. Maybe that’s the key. Maybe the at home stuff is fine for a starting point and for getting you going and teaching you how to figure out what you need on your own and then it becomes a bit of a place holder.

For example in Cardio Fit for Seniors (CFFS) she says “go at your own pace” and my pace keeps ups with her just fine… but I was able to take “go at your own pace” from her and apply it to Leslie Sansone’s Walk Away the Pounds (WATP) without feeling like a failure. Because who can’t walk? I can’t walk. I fall over my own two feet in the kitchen for god’s sake.

Anyway.. after CFFS where I have upped my intensity by doing bigger movements and carrying weights, I discovered WATP and did the 1 mile walk without difficulty. I have gone on to the 2 mile walk and while I have completed it once I find 1.5 miles now on this works well.

So then I tried Absolute Beginners Dance and Step and I can do most of the tutorial and some of the step routine but when I get lost I don’t give up I just do what i know I can do to KEEP MY HEART RATE UP. Because I know now that my work out is not limited to one thing. I can work out as little or as long as I like.

So yesterday was a ROCK star day. First i did CFFS Warm up, then Cardio One, Cardio, Two and Cardio Three and Four. I even carried weights in sessions 2 and 4! I then stopped the DVD and said “I don’t want to do strength and stretching.. I want to WALK MORE”. I stopped the DVD and put in the WATP and then I said “I want to try the 2 but I’ll do only till i want to stop” and yet I managed 1.5 miles only stopping when I had met my step and workout goals for the day. I didn’t do the cool down because I was NOT done, I then popped in my new DVD from the Yoga for Inflexible People set and did 30 minutes of seated yoga.

So yeah I got a serious workout in yesterday. Oh also did some step on the wii to warm up before doing my 30 seconds of planking. Yes I can hold a plank for 30 seconds. Not great but it’s better than I was doing.

I like the whole working out thing. I note my back is not hurting as much and while I’m still fat and not losing weight at least I feel good that I’m trying.

Working out is finally working out for me.

Deep sigh…. I am thinking of coming back to Ethnic Chicken… God Bless Aaron for making it easy for me…

going to consider a new theme…

CUT IT OUT!  There are no ads here. There are minimal readers. The site is backed up daily and the owner and webmaster (two different people) BOTH do network security for the UNITED STATES FEDERAL GOVERNMENT!….  

You bring an IP to my site, it’s recorded.  YOU try to get in, it’s recorded and I get a notice. I get the notice I BAN YOUR IP…  and i take my site BACK.

WHY BOTHER?  for the fun… what fun is it?

 

I will find you and I will make you unhappy.   I monitor this site 24/7…. 

 

CUT IT OUT!

What does?   My home renovation.    We are dying here… Jim can barely walk straight he’s so tired.  I have two gashed up legs… we are both on the verge of tears.. both eating crapily… (diner food for breakfast, Arby’s for dinner today for example)

It’s a LOT of work… today we started week 3… they are doing floors today but we only have ONE bathroom… arrrgghhh…

 

So anyway this thing is so HUGE I’m going to buy a website and give it a life of it’s own… ethnic chicken does not need to be swaddled with all this…

’nuff said?

the house is a disaster as we work on getting it beautiful and wonderful. Jim.. oy vey he’s dealing with the stress of this very well. He looks exhausted… how he deals with me I don’t know.

we are updating the house daily but right now it’s a slow process as I have no access to my laptop… if it’s still this bad when I get home I may drag it to panera and have dinner there and use the wifi…

Today begins the renovation of our home… I was told 3 weeks. I am figuring 4 weeks and I bet it drags on to 6 weeks when all is said and done…

I have so much to talk about… my new engagement ring… (pretty and blingy and over the top but with the parent’s old jewelry used to make the ring (and the wedding band) it means a great deal to me… and everyone is kind and says it’s NOT too much but it just may be… A one carat perfect center stone deep set in platinum with 12 baguettes on the sides (stair stepped down 3 2 1) and then one row of 4 chips one row of 2 chips and one row of one chip) for a total of twenty diamonds in this ring… of course the chips are tiny…. the baguettes are also very small… the chips are so small as to almost be pave’

it’s a European shank of yellow gold (squared bottom) with an inset of pink gold wrapped in white gold.. and the diamonds are in platinum… quite the ring… the matching wedding band is yellow gold with an embedded rose gold ring wrapped in white gold… can’t wait till October 6th 2012 to wear it… (that’s the wedding date)

So I’m taking pictures of the reno at home… it just started today

they started in the two spare bedrooms… sadly that’s where all my makeup and stuff is… oy…. going to be a fun few days this week with my make up packed up and no clothes available…

Day One of The House Reno

Bless Aaron…. he fixed us… we’re back… now off to find a theme that works again…

Ouch this may stir stuff up but it’s MY blog and I’m going to say what I have to and want to.

NOT related to my weight or my health or my back… but stuff that’s going on in the lovely state of Maryland right now.

1. Maryland’s House and Senate have both voted to approve same sex marriage (this is a no brainer to me so I’m not sure why it’s taken so long.) In fact, I’m not sure why in the world the STATES have to deal with this… it should be a federal law that you can marry any PERSON you want.

I don’t want to marry my dog
I don’t want to marry my toaster… or my car…..

In fact, I personally don’t want to marry another woman. BUT I don’t think that anyone else should have the right to tell me who I can or cannot love and how I can or cannot express it.

The idiots who are against this are saying they will ask for a referendum and send it to the voters… that scares me enough to worry about it… so many NARROW minded people in this world… and lots of them in this state I fear.

I hear folks talk about this like gays are not human… the opponents of gay rights talk about gays just like those in the past talked about African-Americans not having rights, or the ability to make choices etc.

WHY in the world and HOW in the world can people think that they are better than others because of who they love, the color of their skin, or the religion they follow?

Arrrghh… I guess part of me wishes I could understand their feelings and yet a huge part of me is very very glad I can’t.

I’ve heard arguments that marriage is for procreation. I guess that means that infertile couples should not marry and couples that have no intention of having children should not marry.

Now, about this Abortion stuff… not going on here… but there is some place that is saying they want to have a law that says you can’t have an abortion without a transvaginal ultrasound. I’ve had those. It’s HORRIBLE. It’s invasive and it’s demeaning. Even when being done for a legitimate medical procedure.

I think they believe that if a woman sees this ultrasound they will change their minds. Like most women are so caviler about abortion? Maybe they think that some women will be so put off by the thought of what in my opinion is akin to a medically sanctioned rape, that they will just have the baby…

I guess again it’s folks that do not understand how adults think. More people that think they have the RIGHT to tell me what i can and cannot do with my own body… Now I have thankfully never had to make the decision to have an abortion since I was smart enough and wise enough to not have sex without protection unless I wanted to get pregnant…

Sadly there are women who don’t have that option… and again it’s the government sticking their nose in where they don’t belong… I’m not asking the state to pay for the abortion. Are they looking at what they would have to pay if they FORCE these women to have babies they don’t want? Welfare payments, medical payments. School costs… food stamps, medical costs… and yet if you ask them what to do with this baby and who will care for the baby and pay for the expenses of being pregnant and giving birth (even if the child was given up for adoption) they shrug… NOT MY PROBLEM… so tell me again why MY body is their concern???

well sort of…

I bought a new domain today… www.internetsend.net. Internet’s END because what I really wanted was already taken… by GOOGLE of all people… ROFL which is funny because this site will have a direct link TO Google… what amazes me is that THIS site when you Google ethnic chicken is the first hit. I love it.

So now that I have this new domain to play with what shall I do with it… well not much but it will be fun…

Me… my weight is up a few pounds… so today I started using my tool again…

1. protein first

2. NO snacks that are Unplanned

3 NO drinking and eating at the same time (this has really gotten out of hand for me)

4. cutting way back on carbs and sugar…

I am at 152 and that’s borderline over the top for me….. I keep saying I want to be between 140 and 145 but the truth is I’m happy between 145 and 150 with 148 being my favorite place…

so 4 pounds down… here I come!

Just wanted to say HI to myself and any remaining readers I have. I have been one poor corespondent (bonus points to the person that can name the song that quote comes from) but I’m going to try to come back and post stuff…

Not much but my weight has changed since the last post. I’m up to @150 and I think that’s where it’s going to be… I don’t panic until I see 154 or so… but I love under 150… under 145 and I start looking gaunt… so 150 it is. not too bad for an old lady… going to be 52 next month…

Wearing anywhere from a size 4 to a size 10 depending on how it’s cut but I tend to be a 6 for most things… so NOT complaining… although Jim patted my belly the other night and said “belly” in that Homer Simpson voice that means he LIKES it… oh well… I guess a bit of meat on me is not bad.

I still want to do my back and legs but next year… I have no leave at work this year… I’ve used nearly 15 weeks in the last year… way too much…

So Jim is formally living with me in Baltimore. We are happy. We are planning a wedding in Las Vegas this year some time… there is a proposal coming on February 29th (Sadie Hawkins Day) from ME to HIM and then the planning will start… we have to pick a date first and I am waiting for my name to be changed back to my maiden name…

Work is good… Things are good. Just lots of things I don’t talk about so much any more.