Archive for 2009

10
Dec

12/10/09-Frustration (no not the network…)

   Posted by: Nessa    in kids

Good Morning,

I’m frustrated with myself for so many reasons.  1. sometimes I think I’m a no good very bad parent.  I mean why do I have to give girl child such a hard time at 6 am?  Actually she’s very lucky her father didn’t want to wake her at 11 last night when we found all the coffee cups she HID behind her toilet in her bathroom.

How did we find them?  We followed the SMELL… OMG.    She said “i put them there”  I pointed out that on the floor was putting them somewhere but that BEHIND the toilet was hiding them.  I also pointed out that she can’t SMELL it because she’s SMOKING.   Oy.  She’s so busy wanting to help Shannon and her friend that her chores are not getting done.   And yes she has a lot of chores but OH well,  I work full time and I am selfish and I need help.  My house would not be such a mess if she did not live with me. My house would not be so cluttered. I would not be so poor.  I spoil her with gifts and clothes and treats.  Her father gets off easy.  Yes he does.   And I guess sometimes I get resentful.

But that’s not what’s frustrating me.  What’s frustrating me is that I’ve forgotten how to edit pages on WordPress.  and I’m going to have to ask Aaron yet again.  He’s so smart and he’s patient but still I can’t help but feel sometimes he thinks of me as just an old annoying lady to placate.. He’s a good kid his momma raised him right…

Scale was up today but still under 220 so I think I’m safely out of 220s now.   at least for this go round.  I’ve not set a  drop dead number yet…  I just wonder how low I can go.

My back is starting to hurt badly again… I’ll call the doctor later when they open and get an appointment for next week.  NOT a good thing.  Tammie would like to know which vertebra is irritated so she can work with it.   I just want my back to stop hurting.

7
Dec

12/07/2009–Monday Monday…

   Posted by: Nessa    in WLS

Woo-hoo I made it to Monday.  I made it to Monday and the scale said 219.6.  That’s 2TEEN!  I made the teens.  I am about 13 pounds higher than my lowest South Beach Diet weight ever.  I did south beach diet (which btw is a GREAT plan) from May 2006 through August 2008…  I got very very very frustrated when I could NOT get below 200 pounds.  I was close… so close…   actually hung around 21 0 but saw 206 a couple of times.. but PLEASE… 2 years to lose 80 pounds.

I’m down now 33 pounds in 11 weeks.  so I’m losing about 3 pounds a week… (average)… Now I’m sure TOMORROW I will show a gain up past 220 but that’s ok.. that’s my pattern.

Today is meet Tammie the Trainer at the gym.   glad to know my back is just an ‘irritated disc’ so I’m on steroids again.  I guess I have to admit that NOT being able to take NSAIDS is a bit annoying but there are other things we can do…. steroids in low doses occasionally aren’t going to kill me….

My food is good.  tasty… small amounts.  it’s always my fluids and my calcium that are killing me.  I never get enough fluids.   I do get enough protein but only if I drink some every day…  and If ind that the more protein I get the more I lose so I’m working it….

3
Dec

12-03-09 I really need to post MORE

   Posted by: Nessa    in Diet, Exercise, Health, WLS

Well well well I never post here.  I’m so busy over at Obesity Help ‘s RNY board that I just never get over here.  And I should.  This is my attention whore place is it not?

So let’s see… weight loss sucks.  I have to stay off the scale.  Seriously.  I’ve lost around 30 pounds in 10 weeks.  now this is not bad…. and I should be THRILLED.  but I’m not.  I want a regular steady loss NOT an average.  I know i’m averaging over 3 pounds a week but STILL… ARRGGHHH…

I’m in the gym.  IN fact, I see the trainer 2 times a week and I take yoga at least once a week.   And I’m doing CARDIO too.  ugh.

Potty issues abound.   I take COLACE and Fiber but it’s not as helpful as I would like.

I just wish I knew I was doing ok…


1
Oct

10/01/09-something I posted at another site

   Posted by: Nessa    in Uncategorized

but it highlights my life so far since surgery so its’ a good record:


Let’s NOT talk about my steri-strip allergy at this point. Because it’s pretty rare to be allergic and my reaction is pretty extreme….. other than that I feel GREAT…


My surgery was on Tuesday 9/22 and I was home on Wednesday 9/23 (with the JP drain). now that was a bit uncomfortable. but my last pain killers (I had liquid vicodan due to a percocet allergy most of our docs patients get Roxicet) was on Thursday afternoon. I was also sent home with some anti-nausea pills since I had some nausea in the hospital (again not a standard practice with out doctor)\


Friday I was taken by a friend to the doctor’s office and had the drain pulled. that almost tickled so it wasn’t bad. What was worse was that my allergy was starting…. so i was lumpy and itchy…


That night a friend of mine (a new friend who had WLS herself 6 months ago) came by and we went out… nowhere exciting to the grocery store for benadryl and milk and stuff. at this point I’m still on clear liquids so food was not an issue… she and my hubby ate some ground beef seasoned with taco seasoning and melted cheese for their dinner and I had crystal light…


then i rested as I was tired. I’d gone out twice that day so no wonder.


Saturday we got up and my husband and teen daughter leave for the weekend (long standing plans I did not want them to cancel) and I spent the rest of the weekend home alone with the puppies adding in “full liquids” to my diet.


In our practice full liquids include diet hot chocolate (swiss miss) low fat cottage cheese and thinned cereals such as oatmeal and cream of wheat (or cream of rice which I prefer) as well as creamed soups with the chunks strained out so I had cottage cheese, cream of rice and now my morning hot drink is no coffee but a swiss miss made with milk (instead of water) to give me a nice 10 gm of protein every morning….


at this point hubby called and said they were staying Sunday night too and I was fine with that but my rash was really really bad at this point so first thing monday morning I called my surgeon and they told me to come in as soon as I could.


So I got in the car and drove myself to the surgeon (not too far from our house) and was given a prescription for steroids (a medrol dose pack so six days of steroids)


After the doctor I drove to the lab and had my required one week blood work drawn and got my steroid scrip filled.


so now my daily supplements are 2 bariatric chewable vitamins (one AM one PM and never with my 6 calcium chew supplements spread out over the day) and my steroids which are being tapered down now… and I will be done with them on Saturday.


spent the rest of Monday at home. Spent Tuesday at home and then yesterday I was starting to heal (my rash is drying up)


so Wednesday I was up and dressed and went out for most of the day with my MIL. we went shopping and I did a lot of walking (walmart and Costco) I did minimal lifting


I made sure to bring my special water with me (I’m drinking ice cold water with protein bullet ( I get these at the GNC) added so that i’m getting about 20 grams of protein per 32 oz bottle)


IF I did not have this rash I could have easily gone back to work already. my job is not stressful and not physically active.


Food is a bit boring at this point. Our plan is clear liquids for 2 days then full liquids for 10 days then we progress to pureed foods. (every doctor is different) so I’m on full liquids now… my day starts early at about 5 when my husband gets up for work (he’s 6 weeks out from bypass) then I have my prevacid (one meltaway daily before breakfast) and my hot chocolate.


about an hour later I start drinking my water (with protein) and then about noon I’ll have some lunch… a couple of spoonfuls of low fat cottage cheese seems to be my current fav. in fact I managed to have that yesterday when I was out with MIL. I found one of those Breakstone Cottage doubles and got a strawberry one. It’s cottage cheese on one side and fruit preserves on the other and you are supposed to mix them together. I ate some of the cottage cheese out of the package and MIL ate the rest mixed together.


I thought I’d eat ALL the cottage cheese. HA! not even 1/4 of it was enough to fill me… amazing.

came home worked on drinking. I’ve discovered that going out means I have to really work harder to make sure I drink enough….

dinner last night was cream of potato soup made with milk and then I added some unflavored protein powder (mixed with cool water first to avoid lumps)

today my plan is to take my hubby’s car to the shop for some work. and then I plan to work on Saturday with my daughter to straighten up our kitchen which is a disaster area.

I think that tomorrow I will be taking my older son (who is 25 and emotionally disabled) on a field trip if he’s allowed out from his facility tomorrow.

Basically what I’m saying is that I feel GREAT! a bit sore if I bend. and I tire easily, I still get a tad queasy now and then, I don’t like room temp beverage, I can’t drink plain water and I’m dreaming of things like beef stew and salads but other than that it’s been great.

didn’t think I’d give you a book now did you?

sorry it’s so long…

29
Sep

09/29/09 still itching but now on ‘roids…

   Posted by: Nessa    in WLS

good morning.

my computer is making me nuts it’s acting up.   while I love firefox I really think it’s part of the problem.  this morning my bookmark toolbar is missing and all my bookmarks are not accessible.  good thing I know most of my fav sites by heart.

so I missed writing yesterday.  I went to the surgeon yesterday to have him look at the alien stomach.   It’s pretty bad.  He prescribed steroids a six day course.  I’m hoping it helps. I’ve had one day so far and I”m not feeling it.  oh well.  Yesterday was a better fluid and a better protein day.  I’m going to try the same today.  discovered that my favorite water bottle H2O Traveler 1 litrewhen filled half way with ice then filled with water to the top then having protein stuff added (in this case half a protein bullet and a packet of Designer Whey Biggest loser raspberry protein 2 go powder  is quite palatable and I drink almost all of it.  2 of those along with my hot chocolate get me my 64 oz per day and enough protein… so doable.

What is amazing to me, is that I’m really feeling good enough that I could go back to work.  today is one week out and IF I Had to I could go to work!  amazing.  truly amazing.

oh well i think that to celebrate that, I”ll make a protein drink,  and hit the couch for a nice benadryl buzz.   I do have pictures of the alien baby belly but it’s just too scary.   NOTE TO SELF:  make sure ALL doctors know how allergic to steri strips I am.   NOT bandaids.  NOT latex just steri strips.   a rare allergy…. figures.

26
Sep

09/26/09 Itchy Saturday Home Alone

   Posted by: Nessa    in WLS

here I am.  oy.  home alone.  it’s good. I’m gonna nap.  food is being recorded at sparks people right now.  but here was my day:

get up

itch

eat cottage cheese (2 tablespoons)

itch more

drink

take a walk   (yes I took a walk a short one I don’t feel great)

drink

lunch was about 4 oz of protein shake

drink more

couch.

drink more

nap

dinner was oatmeal with milk and protein drink 3 tablespoons oatmeal.  did not eat it all. go figure.

not sure why the posts are not updating.

25
Sep

09/25/09 ~ TGIFriday and see the doctor day!

   Posted by: Nessa    in Health, WLS

good morning.   such that it is.  I started with nausea again last night.  one of those magic little pills really helped they are called ONDANSETRON HCL 4 mg  tablet and they are tiny but a huge help   and even better

I’m allergic to steri strips. I”m itchy.   and sore and RED.  I see the doctor today to have the JP drain pulled.  It’s three days since surgery. it’s draining a lot I wonder if he’s going to pull it.

my other joy (NOT) is the tummy rumbles and the potty joy that it entails.  OY VEY! I had no clue that you could poop liquid…  so it’s not just farts… so every time i feel gassy i have to get up out of the recliner and hit the bathroom.  at least i’m getting my exercise.


24
Sep

09/24/09 Finally Post OP… some Ramblings….

   Posted by: Nessa    in Diet, Exercise, Health, WLS

well hi there.  tuesday was surgery.  i cried in the preop room the heprin stung.  i was stressed.  I got weighed at the hospital.  the nurse said  ‘it’s in his orders I’ve NEVER seen that before.”  wow… wonderful..  yay me.

I remember being wheeled somewhere… then I remember waking up in recovery… NO Memories of anything else…..

I was not in recovery long, then up to a private room.

brian stayed most of the day.  dilauded makes me itch and it makes me nauseous.

while i love my doctor the nursing staff is so overwhelmed I had to sit in a chair for 2.5 hours before someone came to me. and i asked for help.  after shift change it was hours before i met my nurse….  this is wrong.  just totally wrong….

angie bless her heart.. stayed with me all of wednesday we walked  laps  2 laps twice.  I was home by dinner time the day after surgery.

not drinking enough.

emptied the JP drain once, they did not give me the cup to measure so I had to make one.

it got hot here now…  figures.  so i switched to shorts for today.   I need a shower.  maybe brian will help me with one tonite…

just rambling here.   I’ll try to remember to clean it up later.

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31
Aug

8/31/09 ~ The beginning of the End

   Posted by: Nessa    in Diet, Health, WLS

Good Morning…

today is the last day of my Pre-Weight loss surgery life.  Although I don’t have surgery till 9/22/09  I want to start my prep for it tomorrow  9/1/09 (also my brother’s birthday.  he’s 46 tomorrow)

I want to go out to lunch today but I think the plans we had are going to fall through…

I am working late, then heading to my MIL to look at her computer.  then stop at the store for the girl child for lunch meat…

hubby is home.  he’s been home all summer.  and his boss lost her contracts so hubby lost his job.  but he quickly found another. I think he starts tomorrow.

Today we are going to go to Cheesecake factory for lunch.   LAST CALL!

oy.



14
Jul

07/14/09-I’ve got Tuesday on my Mind…

   Posted by: Nessa    in Uncategorized

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Wow, it’s only tuesday. It feels like Wednesday already!

my tummy is a bit out of sorts… just not eating the best I could be.

getting very very very excited about our WLS journey. I’m pretty sure the doctor’s office will be submitting our paperwork today!  we might even hear by the end of the week!

I find it hard to update the blog daily at this point. I mean I’m not too worried about the food or exericse right now…

I have  South Beach Friends for love and support and a safe private place to post stuff….

I have  Obesity Help for the WLS support and my local friends (which is so cool)

I just get burnt out ya know.