Good Morning!

It’s Monday. It’s windy and cold.  I wish it was sunny and warm and i was independently wealthy so I could be home with my puppies… my house needs to be cleaned.  my weekends are too busy to get that done.  I’m late with my post this morning because I was working hard on my F3 logs.  Food, Fluid and Fitness!  I think I finally got it set how I’m going to work it.  Since I don’t have collapsible menus it will be a bit heavy (must talk to Aaron about this) on the link sidebar but I think it will be ok.  first I list all the MONTHS and on that page you click on a month and it will take you to a page that lists all the dates in that month At that page you can click on a date and it will take you to that day’s menus!  Like I said if I could set up the menus to drop down on the pages it would be even cooler.  I will ask the theme developer about that.

I’ve lost my fonts and sizing.  Waiting for Aaron to help me with that.

Dog News:

Harley’s  butt is higher than his head.  This is clear indication that we are in a serious growth spurt.  UGH.  He is going to be a big boy.  Hannah seems much more comfortable now that she’s back on meds.  I hope this clears up her problem.

Oh well,  back to work….

Tags: Dogs, food diaries, website development

Good Morning! Still a gray day here. Today is a good day if you like gray chilly spring days. I slept on the couch. Brian slept on the other couch. Dogs slept with us. And let me sleep till 8:30 which was good since I did not get home till after 1 and then there was the whole ‘take off the face’ time… I think that’s more why I don’t wear makeup daily, it’s a pain to take it off…

My food is way off. The house is a mess. Girl child will empty the dishwasher and do some laundry for me today. I’m a bit frustrated with the blog right now. I have to type in Word to make it look like I want. I lost some of my editing stuff. I’ll talk to Aaron later on.

I think the site is doing well. I’m rather pleased with the FORUM and I am sure there are many other options I have available.

Last night was fun. I met a bunch of new friends. And we danced and laughed and I think this will be a regular event for me now. A bit far for me but not too bad. Thank goodness I have a Garmin GPS. I never would have found it without my Garmin. Yay for a Garmin! I feel much safer with it. You just plug in the address you want, and it tells you how to get there.

When you are done, you punch the “go home” button and it gets you home.  Just takes so much stress off my plate.

So now we are getting ready to go game for the afternoon.  Gaming is a good thing.   we play all sorts of fun stuff.  not sure what we are going to play today and I’m not sure what’s for dinner yet either.  or lunch or breakfast for that matter.

ETA:

Check OUT THIS Sheep Art

Weird Weird Weird.  The New post toolbar is missing my fonts and sizing.  Oh dear.  At least I have my colors.  This is what I get for tweaking.  I did find a message board for wordpress and will be installing it.  Ethnic chicken will have its own message board… how cool is that???

News:   we lost girl child last night, I found her. Sleeping in her room.  Oy.  She never even told me she was going to bed. Or if she did I did not hear her.

Brian got home around 11:30 from race practice.  Not a good practice.  He’s already gone for today.  Since I’m going out tonight I won’t see him till later.

Tummy is a tad upset…  I made a new casserole for dinner last night and it sucked.  Gummy, flavorless… and appears to have not agreed with me.  UGH.  Oh well live and learn.

I’ve put in a load of laundry already

I’ve called the Baltimore Sun to have them send out a new Sunday paper that was delivered last night (Friday) and is soaked. It never came.

Still looking for someone to take the table and hutch.  I think we are going to have to move it to goodwill ourselves.

My wrist hurts (right).  I think I pulled a muscle or something yesterday.

The dogs are being restless and annoying but it’s raining so they have to suck it up.

Tomorrow we are gaming with Norman.  Amy has something to do.

Tonight I’m going out with girl friends.  OY!  Must stop and get some cash before I go.  I’m excited.  I don’t go out with the girls all that often.

Oh well not much to really say today.

I could talk about my lack of control food wise but I am not sure I want to.

Did I mention that I put the gym membership on hold?  I was going to cancel but she told me I could put it on hold for 3 months (April may and June) and then I can get a doctor’s note till after my surgery and recovery to put it on medical hold till I am ready to come back.  With Brian.  So I’ll try that for 3 months it’s only 25 dollars a month for the hold.   Gives me time to think.

I kept thinking I should get on the bike this morning but I did not.  Oh well.  Maybe I need to push myself harder.  I know I need to tighten up on my food….

ETA:

Food has been very carby today

Fluids light

Exercise non-existent (I’m going out tonight I plan to dance some)

I’m home alone today that’s always a bad thing for me.  I really need to discuss this boredom eating with the nut. At my next visit.

Tags: Dogs, Exercise, food, gym membership., message board, rain, ranting, raving rambling

Good Morning!  (Don’t you hear Debbie Donald and GENE?)

I guess I have to fix it when I get home!  NOTE TO SELF: FIX YOUTUBE LINK!

today is going to be spring like.  still a bit damp this morning.  I got to work and signed 6:15.   it’s a long walk from the parking lot to the security building through the guard station, back outside, down the steps throught he double set of doors, past another guard then then through the turnstile.

Scale was UP this morning.  251.4  I MUST get a hold of myself!  I was pretty good yesterday except for lunch.   Today brian said he would get something to eat.  always makes me nervous.

I’m quitting the gym.  it’s 98 dollars a month that i’m NOT using at this point.  I’m walking the link at work and i have some light weights, an exercise bike and a wii fit at home.  I need to save some money!  I think after brian’s surgery and he’s ready we will join as a couple.

Hannah is sick again. I have to call the vet.  there’s another $140 dollars.  Maybe we can try a different CHEAPER antibiotic!   Her last one was $63.00 for 14 pills!  and she didn’t even like them that much.

Bri is going racing tonite… and tomorrow and maybe sunday.  tomorrow night i’m going out with friends…

oh well time to work!

ETA:

Hannah has the vet at 11:15 so I’m leaving work at 10:30 taking BOTH dogs to the vet because I’m afraid to leave Harley alone in the house with no one home.

And goodness who am I turning into?  I’m coming back!

Tags: brian, gym, hannah, movies, singing in the rain, youtube

Still have rumblings of discontent.  So hard to be permanently perfectly happy in life.   Gray overcast and rainy today.   I’m hoping I can update the blog daily but I know as i get healthier and busier that the web will have to fall by the wayside.

Starting to really get into walking on the link with Lew  (HI LEW).  One of my better buddies at work!  Yesterday we did 4 laps (I count it as a mile) and then we did 8 laps later in the day (that’s 2 miles)  I guess I’ll need to add one extra lap with the second walk to make it a full 3 miles…  hopefully eventually I can do 8 laps in the morning and 9 laps in the afternoon and have 4 miles per day.  Makes me think at least for a while I can give up the gym.  Save some money.  I think my contract is over for now.   Even is we give it up 6 months that’s 600 dollars.. big savings.

Today Brian and I visit the Pulmonary Doctor as a step towards being approved for WLS.  A tad nervous but not really.  Just a bit stressed as Brian gets stressed and that stresses me.

I have to leave work at 9 and have no idea when i’ll be back but i guess I’m working till 6 tonite to make up for it.

HUGE:  we are NOT having Chicken for dinner.   LOL.   nope  just beef.  I’m thinking  beef, rice, cheese beans and salsa in a casserole.    Something like this but no tortilla topping just the casserole part:

I am always amazed when folks think I’m a good cook.  I’m not.  not really.

oh well, maybe more later….

Tags: doctor, Dogs, Friends, walk, WLS

I am really not sure I like that most recent posts go on the top.  I mean how do you know where the beginning is?  It just makes no sense to me.  Especially for folks new to the blog.  I mean how do they catch up?  And this whole reading from TOP to Bottom thing… UGH.  HATE IT!

I’m feeling a tad overwhelmed this morning.  Brian missed an appointment I forgot to remind him about.  It was for the Venous Doppler on his legs.  Oy. I feel so bad. I have to reschedule now.  I also noticed I do not have Cardio scheduled.  Ugh.  What a pain.

In a way I am NOT happy we are using St. Agnes.  It’s really outside of MY COMFORT Zone.   So many times I defer my comfort for Brian’s.  My fiscal comfort, my physical comfort, my emotional comfort.   I mean really if I really did what I wanted to do, we’d have  fewer cable channels (we have EVERY PREMIUM channel there is except the premium sports channels), we’d have the heat on lower, the ac on less,  And various other things.  If I did what I wanted to do, I’d be having Surgery ASAP instead of deferring to let him go first at a time convenient for him.  He wants to go first because he’s afraid if he sees how sick I’m going to be right after surgery he won’t have it.  He’s a big huge baby.

I am really hoping that after the surgery so many things will change for him.  Including his self-esteem.   I know he’s already talking about a different job.    He’s so smart.  He could do so many things if he only loved himself more.

Oh well.   Still so very cold here.  I wish Spring would hurry up.

House news: the new table will be here NEXT FRIDAY APRIL 3rd.  Just figuring out how to take the morning off at home.  I normally attend via phone a meeting on Friday mornings.  Maybe I can do it from the house.  The grill was not working well last night.   Brian thinks we are low on propane. I have to find a place to fill tanks that charges by the pound not the tank.

Dogs: Harley is growing in so many ways.  For sure he’s getting taller.  Now he goes out for Girl Child AND he’s getting chummy with Brian.  (finally).  I told him it would take Six months.  When will he learn to listen to me.

Tags: rambles

I never ever know what to say in my posts.  I guess that’s going to have to change yes?

What’s this site about?  Well it’s more than a blog.  “but it sure looks like a blog doesn’t it?” you ask.

Well yeah it does,  but that doesn’t make it less than what it is.  It’s a journey.  Not sure yet what it’s a journey to but then the trip should be a blast.

Currently  there  are several things going on in my life.   Running a webiste  for South Beach Dieters.  South Beach Friends Message Board which of course started as an offshoot of a board that we all met on.  We were all following South Beach Diet (me included) and had one of the ongoing  ‘vets are so mean to newbies fights’ and someone said ‘if you all wanna be so mean why not go start your own board?’

So I did! So there!  Of course I never imagined it would turn into a true domain with users finding us on Google! I figured it would be 25 friends whining and bitching about how idiots try to change the diet and then complain when it doesn’t work.

I still feel that way.   that SBD works.  and it works well.  For some people.  For me not so well.  for people like me not so well.

so I’m going to change my life.  but more about that later.

Other  things I have to deal with  Children.  I have 3.  2 boys and a girl.

the boys:

Older Son (OS) is almost 25.  OMG am I really old enough to have a 25 year old child?  WHAT? I’m NOT 18 anymore???  ugh.  OS is a special child.  not just to me.  He currently lives in a group home nearby and is in a special program for adults with emotional problems.

Younger Son (YS)  is nearly 23 and graduates from Drexel this coming June. he’s a funny kid.

neither of them live with us.

the girl child

and yes we do call her Girl Child.    She is the bonus that came with the husband (more about him later).   Met her dad who was supposed to be fun and games but you know how that goes…    she was 9 then.  now she’s nearly 17!  and she’s a good kid.   A smart kid.  a FUNNY kid.  MY KID.  and I love her.  just like my boys!   I really hate that society thinks you have to physically birth a child to be the parent.

ok enough about the two legged kids… now let’s talk about:

THE FUR BABIES

yes we currently have 2 fur babies.  We have Harley who is a 15 month old Newfoundland (Landseer) and we have Hannah our 7 year old  Pitador.

In February 2002 I got Bagel.  (huh? who? what? I thought this story was about Hannah and Harley?!– well it is but you need to know about Bagel too)

Bagel at about age 2 Hugging Hannah age 10 weeks

I got Bagel from the Baltimore SPCA after the Baltimore Humane Society Turned me down. (bless their hearts).   Bagel was  a curmugeon of a dog.  He was never warm and loving and was always very independent.  He did what he wanted and I had semi-control over him.  He was large and black and was clearly part Newfoundland.  He was about 2 years old.  I loved him and he saved me. Because of him I was able to finally get out of a bad marriage that needed ending long before Bagel arrived.  Of course the second disaster said “i’m being replaced by a dog” and I said  “yep”

But I was working long hours and felt Bagel was lonely so I got Hannah.  Oy.  9 weeks old.  Fearless.  my little yellow dog.  Well not mine. Bagel’s.  He picked her out.    While Bagel knew ‘speak’ and ‘down’,  Hannah knew  ‘come’ and ‘stay’  never could get both dogs to do both things.  I’m not a great dog mom.

Fast forward to Summer 2008.  Bagel is not doing well.  I take him to the vet (now remember he’s fat because he has a thyroid condition and a lazy mommy.  He has Lyme Disease.  a BAD case.  A titer over 30 is bad. Bagel’s is over 300.   We give him meds and he gets better.  and then one day, he can’t walk.   Back to the vet we go.  He has a herniated disk in his neck.  We don’t know from what.   A week at the vet on

steroids and he can’t move still.  We make the horrendously painful decision to put him down on September 14, 2008.   <insert horrid sobbing and tears here>.   Hannah is lost.  Brian (the husband I have not yet talked about) is devastated.  I’m sad. yes I am. in fact even now i’m on the verge of tears.   But Bagel is at peace now. Waiting for us at the Rainbow Bridge

well we felt lost so we contacted Donna at Autumn Acres Rescue because I had previously done some transport for her. and asked about a Landseer puppy.  A male.  She happened to have 2.  Dallas and Phoenix.   Brothers.   I could NOT take both.  (which is good because Phoenix is in an awesome home in upstate New York).  I took Dallas.  But we changed his name to Harley.

He was ten months old when we got him that was 5 months ago.  He’s still skittish but he’s doing much much better. and he’s growing.  he was 78 pounds when we got him.  he’s up to 96 pounds and he’s a delight.    Every day in every way it gets better.

Now Brian (again with the husband) wants A MASTIFF.   OY.  we live in a townhouse for goodness sake.   Maybe next year.

The Husband

Met Brian online in an AOL Chat room around Thanksgiving 2002.   Met him at Betty and Jakes Bar about a week later.  He was a player.  and I was ok with that.  it was fun and games ya know.  He’s ELEVEN YEARS younger than I am.  and he’s a doll baby.   Spring 2004 he gave  up the playing ways and moved in with me.   December 31, 2004  we got married:

The day was gorgeous 70 degress and sunny on New Years Eve in Maryland.

The party was great.

and now for the rest of the story as this post is getting way too long…

Tags: brian, Dogs, house, kids, links, photos, south beach