Good Morning.  I can’t believe it’s ONLY TUESDAY. I swear last night I thought it was already Tuesday.  It’s going to be a long long week.

I’m feeling FAT this morning.  and well I should.  I am fat.  I just want this surgery so badly already. Brian was a bit difficult this morning because he has a test this morning that he has to go to without me and his comfort level is challenged.  I’m sorry.  Suck it up big boy.  YOU WANTED THIS.  I don’t care if you don’t understand WHY you have to have your legs ultrasounded.  THE DOCTOR UNDERSTANDS and that’s why I’m paying him the big bucks.  Don’t make this any more difficult for me than it already is.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Brian but OMG my life would be so in a different place if he was not my husband/partner.

He’s very draining.  I am hoping that with the WLS that drain will become less and less as he learns to take better care of himself.  I am hoping that with the WLS he will have energy and drive.    He takes so much from me emotionally and physically.  And I knew this when I moved in with him, but on the days he’s grumpy it is SO HARD to remember I do this by choice.    I swear he has no lunch today because he didn’t make one. I didn’t do it for him either.  I do enough.   UGH.  Sometimes he makes it hard to want to do this.

Oh well.   Today I will work 10 hours yet again.  I’m trying so hard to get as much credit in as I can and use as little leave as I can.  Does not matter I’m still using Leave.

I’m really pleased with how this site is coming out.  I know it’s hard for some folks to navigate but once they get the hang of it, it should be easy.

I”m also pleased with the fact that i’m walking about 3 miles 5 days a week.  we can do one lap (just short of 1/4 mile) in just over 4 minutes and that’s at a conversational pace.  If  I was alone with the ipod on fast musice i could do it faster.  I just pray my ankle holds up.

ETA:

I walked today.  NOT as much as I would have liked.  I think people do tend to walk more with others. I know I walk more with Lew than I do when alone. It’s a comfort level.  At work when you walk alone everyone knows you are exercising.  When you walk with someone else you could be brainstorming. besides two other folks from my branch were walking and the guy makes me crazy uncomfortable and the chick he was walking with is new and has NO CLUE what a lech he is… and we can’t tell her.  how sad.

I’m also HUNGRY today a bit. some of it being head hunger.   trying to drink enough.  I went to make a mini single serving bag of  Orville Redenbacher’s Smart Pop and the bag had ONE kernnel in it. and nothing else.  it was weird.  So I called them to report it and they said they would send me some product coupons.

ok i’ve walked. I’ve had my drinks.  time for popcorn.