July 8, 2009-Wednesday

I wish it was tomorrow already, the suspense is killing me.  Tomorrow we weigh in at the WLS office.  I hope i’ve lost but after talking to the LCSW last night at the support group meeting, I feel that even if I don’t show a loss I will be ok.

the meeting went well.  my food has been good.  i did have soup last night for dinner.. lentil soup from a can no hotdogs.. filled me anyway.

today i am doing all liquid protein… i’ll survive

i’m really thinking of leaving the WLS support website…  I make this post:

Well I get to the auditorium and it’s set up for SEMINAR…  OMG I think did I get it WRONG? (highly likely given the ADHD)… no it’s right the seminar is tonite as well so they moved the support group to a different room… and the nice lady in the pretty dress walked me to the community room.  It was PACKED.   Mostly faces I did not recognize.

Sloane was there (she never has been there before)….  Ranesa greeted me warmly and started the group…  Lots of pre-ops… a couple of folks 2 years out a few 1-3 months out, one woman who was 6 years out… and came down from PA…

and a couple of REVISIONS… two lapbanders who are being revised…  interesting meeting.
Talked a lot about how the NUMBERS DON’T MATTER

towards the end DVR dropped by… he normally is not at the meetings since I’ve been going.  I don’t know why folks think he’s cold.  I like him so very much.

I just listened.  and at the end asked Ranesa if we could talk.

I told her what i was eating/drinking
i told her I was frustrated and dejected
I said that I was thinking of switching doctors

She told me:

1. you are doing everything right
2. you have every right to be dejected
3. DO NOT GET ON THE SCALE
4. do liquids ONLY on Wednesday
5. come and get her when I weigh in on Thursday and if I don’t show a loss she will talk to the rest of the team and tell them she thinks it’s in my best interest to move forward with or without a loss…

So tomorrow will hopefully be the day I get my date.  Even though DVR is scheduling about 4 weeks out… My plan is to schedule brian for the Second week in August and I don’t want to go till After September 19th…  so it should NOT be a problem…

Thanks to everyone who called me and PMed me.  All of your support and friendship really helped!

And I’m not sure HOW but the haters turned the post around on me and made me look like I was a loser for caring about my husband.

ETA on 2009-07-10 (at 7:29 am)

wow not sure how I didn’t finish updating this… oh well.  I”m glad I save copies of posts. I have the copies of the attacks.  even though the person that made them deleted them. what cowardice.