Well I do believe I’m getting the hang of this now.  Yet again.   I just have yet to figure out what I want this blog space to be… is it about me?  Is it about diet and exercise, is it about my dogs? my kids? randomness?

I wrote a beautiful but long post on my  5 month surgiversary and it’s LONG but I wonder if it’s too long or too repetitive.

It’s so hard to know what to post…  what to write.. who even cares about this stuff??

Well not really.  Oh well it is Thursday… but I’m not FAT… I just feel fat.  I’m retaining a ton of water (about FOUR POUNDS worth so far) and it makes me sad.. BRIAN got on the scale LAST NIGHT (NIGHT for god’s sake) and LOST TWELVE POUNDS…  He’s looking really good. I’m really proud of him.

Me, I’m plugging along.. .back hurts now and then… my piriformis muscle on the right has a knot in it… the pain of the therapy massage is incredible but it’s necessary…

Here is a shot of almost ALL my vitamins and supplements each day.  I’m missing 1 colace not sure how I forgot it.  I also may add more D in later on and another magnesium oxide if needed… we will see.

round brown pills  multi vitamins (two a day-chewable)

round small pink pills   sub-lingual B12 (1000  mcq  2 a day)

huge pink pills   400 mg calcium each… 4 a day  (dissolve or chew)

thick white oval pill   magnesium oxide  (for bowel health)

thin white oval pill   D3 1000 mg  (twice a day)

small white pill  D3  5000 mg  (3 times a day)

orange rectangular pill  IRON  (carbynol iron)  once a day  NOT with calcium)

purple and white capsule   Colace  (twice a day)

here's my daily pills...

but it highlights my life so far since surgery so its’ a good record:

Let’s NOT talk about my steri-strip allergy at this point. Because it’s pretty rare to be allergic and my reaction is pretty extreme….. other than that I feel GREAT…

My surgery was on Tuesday 9/22 and I was home on Wednesday 9/23 (with the JP drain). now that was a bit uncomfortable. but my last pain killers (I had liquid vicodan due to a percocet allergy most of our docs patients get Roxicet) was on Thursday afternoon. I was also sent home with some anti-nausea pills since I had some nausea in the hospital (again not a standard practice with out doctor)\

Friday I was taken by a friend to the doctor’s office and had the drain pulled. that almost tickled so it wasn’t bad. What was worse was that my allergy was starting…. so i was lumpy and itchy…

That night a friend of mine (a new friend who had WLS herself 6 months ago) came by and we went out… nowhere exciting to the grocery store for benadryl and milk and stuff. at this point I’m still on clear liquids so food was not an issue… she and my hubby ate some ground beef seasoned with taco seasoning and melted cheese for their dinner and I had crystal light…

then i rested as I was tired. I’d gone out twice that day so no wonder.

Saturday we got up and my husband and teen daughter leave for the weekend (long standing plans I did not want them to cancel) and I spent the rest of the weekend home alone with the puppies adding in “full liquids” to my diet.

In our practice full liquids include diet hot chocolate (swiss miss) low fat cottage cheese and thinned cereals such as oatmeal and cream of wheat (or cream of rice which I prefer) as well as creamed soups with the chunks strained out so I had cottage cheese, cream of rice and now my morning hot drink is no coffee but a swiss miss made with milk (instead of water) to give me a nice 10 gm of protein every morning….

at this point hubby called and said they were staying Sunday night too and I was fine with that but my rash was really really bad at this point so first thing monday morning I called my surgeon and they told me to come in as soon as I could.

So I got in the car and drove myself to the surgeon (not too far from our house) and was given a prescription for steroids (a medrol dose pack so six days of steroids)

After the doctor I drove to the lab and had my required one week blood work drawn and got my steroid scrip filled.

so now my daily supplements are 2 bariatric chewable vitamins (one AM one PM and never with my 6 calcium chew supplements spread out over the day) and my steroids which are being tapered down now… and I will be done with them on Saturday.

spent the rest of Monday at home. Spent Tuesday at home and then yesterday I was starting to heal (my rash is drying up)

so Wednesday I was up and dressed and went out for most of the day with my MIL. we went shopping and I did a lot of walking (walmart and Costco) I did minimal lifting

I made sure to bring my special water with me (I’m drinking ice cold water with protein bullet ( I get these at the GNC) added so that i’m getting about 20 grams of protein per 32 oz bottle)

IF I did not have this rash I could have easily gone back to work already. my job is not stressful and not physically active.

Food is a bit boring at this point. Our plan is clear liquids for 2 days then full liquids for 10 days then we progress to pureed foods. (every doctor is different) so I’m on full liquids now… my day starts early at about 5 when my husband gets up for work (he’s 6 weeks out from bypass) then I have my prevacid (one meltaway daily before breakfast) and my hot chocolate.

about an hour later I start drinking my water (with protein) and then about noon I’ll have some lunch… a couple of spoonfuls of low fat cottage cheese seems to be my current fav. in fact I managed to have that yesterday when I was out with MIL. I found one of those Breakstone Cottage doubles and got a strawberry one. It’s cottage cheese on one side and fruit preserves on the other and you are supposed to mix them together. I ate some of the cottage cheese out of the package and MIL ate the rest mixed together.

I thought I’d eat ALL the cottage cheese. HA! not even 1/4 of it was enough to fill me… amazing.

came home worked on drinking. I’ve discovered that going out means I have to really work harder to make sure I drink enough….

dinner last night was cream of potato soup made with milk and then I added some unflavored protein powder (mixed with cool water first to avoid lumps)

today my plan is to take my hubby’s car to the shop for some work. and then I plan to work on Saturday with my daughter to straighten up our kitchen which is a disaster area.

I think that tomorrow I will be taking my older son (who is 25 and emotionally disabled) on a field trip if he’s allowed out from his facility tomorrow.

Basically what I’m saying is that I feel GREAT! a bit sore if I bend. and I tire easily, I still get a tad queasy now and then, I don’t like room temp beverage, I can’t drink plain water and I’m dreaming of things like beef stew and salads but other than that it’s been great.

didn’t think I’d give you a book now did you?

sorry it’s so long…

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Wow, it’s only tuesday. It feels like Wednesday already!

my tummy is a bit out of sorts… just not eating the best I could be.

getting very very very excited about our WLS journey. I’m pretty sure the doctor’s office will be submitting our paperwork today!  we might even hear by the end of the week!

I find it hard to update the blog daily at this point. I mean I’m not too worried about the food or exericse right now…

I have  South Beach Friends for love and support and a safe private place to post stuff….

I have  Obesity Help for the WLS support and my local friends (which is so cool)

I just get burnt out ya know.

Good Morning…..

oh i like this color

I’m really lazy about updating on the weekends… Food has been well… interesting.

FRIDAY:

breakfast:

protein drink

lunch

soup and 1/2 panerra sandwich

dinner:

don pablos steak fajita but i had a frozen ‘rita and tons of chips and salsa

saturday

breakfast:

string cheese

lunch

remomos with Jilly for her birthday brunch

had bread cheesecake and a nice salad

dinner:

lots of crap no real food we had gaming

sunday

chips at 2 pm (pita chips reduced guilt trader joes)

dinner was potstickers and veggies

today

MONDAY:

breakfast:

coffee w/ff half and half

Nectar Fuzzy Navel protien drink

700 mil crystal light water  (23 oz)

rest of work day:

carrots/hummus  check

20 oz SoBe life water  goji  (doable)

CHANGE OF PLANS:

Aaron and I are going to Chef Paulino for lunch!

protein bar

low car slim fast shake

almonds

dried peaches

more fluids…

it’s all good!

the blow up on the OH board continues and that’s ok…  it’s really rather nice not being hammered and critizized all the time.  I hate phoney people.   and I love that I don’t have to pay people to be my friends.  folks like me for me not for what i do for them.

July 8, 2009-Wednesday

I wish it was tomorrow already, the suspense is killing me.  Tomorrow we weigh in at the WLS office.  I hope i’ve lost but after talking to the LCSW last night at the support group meeting, I feel that even if I don’t show a loss I will be ok.

the meeting went well.  my food has been good.  i did have soup last night for dinner.. lentil soup from a can no hotdogs.. filled me anyway.

today i am doing all liquid protein… i’ll survive

i’m really thinking of leaving the WLS support website…  I make this post:

Well I get to the auditorium and it’s set up for SEMINAR…  OMG I think did I get it WRONG? (highly likely given the ADHD)… no it’s right the seminar is tonite as well so they moved the support group to a different room… and the nice lady in the pretty dress walked me to the community room.  It was PACKED.   Mostly faces I did not recognize.

Sloane was there (she never has been there before)….  Ranesa greeted me warmly and started the group…  Lots of pre-ops… a couple of folks 2 years out a few 1-3 months out, one woman who was 6 years out… and came down from PA…

and a couple of REVISIONS… two lapbanders who are being revised…  interesting meeting.
Talked a lot about how the NUMBERS DON’T MATTER

towards the end DVR dropped by… he normally is not at the meetings since I’ve been going.  I don’t know why folks think he’s cold.  I like him so very much.

I just listened.  and at the end asked Ranesa if we could talk.

I told her what i was eating/drinking
i told her I was frustrated and dejected
I said that I was thinking of switching doctors

She told me:

1. you are doing everything right
2. you have every right to be dejected
3. DO NOT GET ON THE SCALE
4. do liquids ONLY on Wednesday
5. come and get her when I weigh in on Thursday and if I don’t show a loss she will talk to the rest of the team and tell them she thinks it’s in my best interest to move forward with or without a loss…

So tomorrow will hopefully be the day I get my date.  Even though DVR is scheduling about 4 weeks out… My plan is to schedule brian for the Second week in August and I don’t want to go till After September 19th…  so it should NOT be a problem…

Thanks to everyone who called me and PMed me.  All of your support and friendship really helped!

And I’m not sure HOW but the haters turned the post around on me and made me look like I was a loser for caring about my husband.

ETA on 2009-07-10 (at 7:29 am)

wow not sure how I didn’t finish updating this… oh well.  I”m glad I save copies of posts. I have the copies of the attacks.  even though the person that made them deleted them. what cowardice.

Morning!  it’s july 2nd already… and tomorrow we all have off!

scale yesterday was 258 down four pounds.  food was good and yet i’m up to 258.8 this morning.  sucks to be me.   I think if i keep this atkins shake thing up and don’t lose weight i will be very very very upset.

tonite i’m hoping/planning to go to the gym even if i just do 15 minutes on the arc trainer.

work has blocked facebook. can’t say i blame them.

food today:

breakfast:

coffee w/ff hnh √
atkins shake √

snack:

baby carrots √
2 oz sabra hummus √
100 calorie pack of almonds √

lunch:

atkins shake √
string cheese √

snack:

carrots √
2 oz hummus √
string cheese
almonds √

dinner:

salad of spring mix cucumbers peppers onions and mushrooms
with chicken breast, lf swiss cheese roasted edamame and LF dressing

snack:

healthy choice nsa fudge pop

fluids:

700 ml (23 oz) water with 1 crystal light package (cherry-limeade) √
700 ml (23 oz) water with 1 crystal light package (apple) √
700 ml (23 oz) water with 1 crystal light package (orange) √
700 ml (23 oz) water with 1 crystal light package (orange)  (pending)

Well Well Well, what kind of blog owner am I?  I’m not even here as often as I should be.  Today I’m going to attempt an experiment.  I am doing only protein drinks and crystal light (and of course coffee) today.   my food has been OUT OF CONTROL….

i have not been exercising my hip has really been hurting.

the weekend was busy the weather HOT

hannah is sick yet again… she is not a spring chicken ya know…

no tests this week for me  (i’m done except for the psych part)

bri has his sleep study on Saturday

tomorrow my oldest turns 25.  i am not that old am i?

Well Well Well it’s FRIDAY  TGIF!

scale shows me down a couple of pounds… that’s all I need to be recommended.  so i just have to keep it up.

Weather promises to be a beautiful day…

Brian gets paid today

We have an adult party planned this weekend

We made arrangements for the weekend of 9/18/09-9/20/09 to go to the York fair with friends and got Tickets to Jeff Dunham!   and even though we could do the drive in one day we opted for AN ENTIRE WEEKEND AWAY!   first time in over 2 years!

well today is a busy busy day for me.  i’ll get to more later I hope.