Hi there.  I’ve been lax.   Weekends are so hard.  And yeah I am not in the best frame of mind lately.  So many things stressing me out.  I’m just about done my tests for the surgery and Brian has till May 15 (or maybe later depending on when I can get this sleep study scheduled)  Girl Child is sick YET AGAIN…   or so she says.  she alleges she’s throwing up but i’ve not heard or seen it.  and she eats… and then tells me she’s getting sick.  The boyfriend has spent two nights in the hospital and i’m being told it’s a virus but I have no idea what’s going on.   She’s also complaining of a lump under her arm…  it appears to be an ingrown hair and i told her to put hot compresses on it.  She asked me where she got hot compresses.  Sometimes that child is thick.

Brian is getting rashes under his arms.  I put gold bond on it last night and yes I secretly delighted in it hurting him.  I almost laughed this morning when he sprayed deoderant on it.  he practically screamed.

The dog leash holder fell out of the wall (to be expected) and i have only asked him twice to do it. but no he had to play warcraft all day yesterday and then dominion last night or he lays on the couch snoring.   I guess I’ll get a stool and figure out how to rehang it myself.

I’m ready to be single this week yet again.  My food is out of control.  my exercise is minimal.  I am tired tired tired of him doing NOTHING to further this plan of ours.  On days like this I really do hope he leaves when he gets thin.  the investment in his surgery will be worth being rid of him and his needy kid.

Not sure why he thinks it’s ok to take take take and not give back.

Good Morning.

well maybe.  it’s raining in Baltimore.  I have some quick shopping to do.  my ipod is synching.  I hope.   i hate that i can’t synch it at work and at home so i’m trying something i’m moving all the music from the computer to the ipod.  if it does not work i’ll re-synch with the one at home…. best i can do  i’m actually doing a restore.  gonna cost me more time and money but it’s worth it to have a clean IPOD.

sometimes technology does escape me.

puppies let me sleep till 8 am.  GO PUPPIES.  right now they are playing tug.  hannah lays on the floor with the rope in her mouth and harley drags all 70 pounds of her around dusting the floor.  of course they killed a stuffy this morning so I have to clean the stuffy guts up…

tonite is gaming here.  and grilling I got hamburgers and hot dogs and we have tons of chicken.  and a ham steak we did not cook last night.

I heard about the Biggest Loser Show.  they are looking for a married couple that is co-morbidly obese and is PRE-OP.  I’ve emailed them   who knows we might be famous!  hahaha.

my food is bad right now and tonite is not helping.  i’m going to try to make a new cake.  in the crock pot.

i’m serving hamburgers, hot dogs (both offering white and potato rolls) chicken, ham steak,  potato salad, macaroni salad, cole slaw, and dessert… we also will have some snack foods available.

it’s an adult upstairs teen downstairs party and again not sure how many are coming…

Good morning!

I’m busy with my new toy:

it’s a Samsung Impression (for AT&T). Brian got one too.   Learning to figure it out… lots of fun.

I’m so glad it’s friday.

I am getting sick and tired of folks who talk out of two sides of their mouth and pretend to be one thing when clearly they are another…. UGH.

I hate phony fake people.   I guess i can go to my FORUM and bitch about it in private.  Members feel free to join me.

So today i’m working Itunes, checking out my new phone, doing some shopping i did not get done yesterday because i’m an idiot and left my wallet at work and by the time I got back and got it and got home and did everything else and over ate at dinner i was too pooped to party.

Ok having lunch with Donna.   that should be fun!

This week is going fast, at least for me.

I nap on the couch from 9-11 so i’m really getting enough sleep. go figure.  Brian is sleeping downstairs this week so i’m getting a decent night’s sleep.

I want to talk about elevator etiquette today.  In public now  a days it’s first on last off… (cause you are in the back).  In my OFFICE, men that do not let the ladies off first are publicly ridiculed.  It’s like our own little corner of 1950 still.    I’ve gotten so used to it that when some new guy gets off before me I’m insulted.

Last night, I took Toby and Michele to the vet with Wiley.  Poor Wiley… so stressed he was practically blowing a coat.  I drove them there but let them have their private time with Wiley.  Toby is destroyed.   Just like Brian was when Bagel was put down.

This morning the alarm went off at 4:46 like always. I know I hit snooze at least twice before i turned it off.  I finally got up about 6:30.  I managed to be at work by 7:30 but I did have to wake the girl child to go down and get me some jeans.  and I had NO GUILT about it.  I have asked her all week to bring up the clean laundry.  she never does.  so i woke her at 6:30 to do so!

Left brian sleeping on the couch.  left the dogs watching him.  told Girl child I was leaving and here I am.  I told them to take ham steak out for dinner.  I have to stop at  Bjs tonite.  I got my $20 dollar check from the BJs credit card.  for every 2000 points I accumulate I get $20.00.  it’s working nicely now that I’m paying the card off every month and using it to ammass points.

oh well I better go work… more later.

I sometimes HATE how this blog works.  It’s sometimes so hard to get the font and the size and the color the way I wan them.

ON the other hand… i love having an entire site devoted to me.  and it’s FUN.

I”m still not feeling good… but i’m toughing it out.  I assume it’s food/testing related.

did not get to work till 8:45 today.  not going to be a good day.

not much to say.

tomorrow is Sloane.  ugh.  i know she will yell I’ve lost NOTHING and i don’t think bri has lost anything either.   I don’t know what happens in that case. i guess tomorrow we find out.

ok i’m up and showered (late for me too it’s 7:30)

i have my blood work this morning
then my upper gi series
then i have to get brian
then we  have to get down to wilikens ave  for our cardio work ups
then i have to take brian back to his office
then i have to go get dog food
then i have to go to my walmart and get milk thistle for hannah and apple crumb breakfast bars for brian and  mouthwash, cranberry apple and sunrise orange drink for me….
then i have to get to giant and get chobani (it’s on sale i’ve been told but i can’t find it in the circular)

other things i need to get

starbucks sugar free syrups
stop at bjs for carrots bananas spring mix, healthy choice fudge pops and a few other things.

it never stops…

i’ll try to update later.

ETA:

the tests are done!  it was a long day.

left the house around 8:10

did my fasting blood work

went and had the horrible terrible VERY YUCKY Upper GI Series  OMG!

(for those that have never had the experience first you fast from dinner the night before. then when you get there they  make you strip down to your panties (and of course the gowns were too damn small so i needed one front and back) then you go and drink a small cup of something with lemony flavored crystals that made me think of alka-seltzer.  and they tell you “DON’T BURP” yeah right!  I’m gulping down foamy fizzy white stuff I want to PUKE UP….  burping is the LEAST of my problems…..

ok then the doc comes in and i stand on a platform with a big table behind me… they take a picture.  then i turn to the side and I drink this pina colada tasting white thick stuff through a straw as fast and as much as I can.  YUCK….  then I turn and do it on the other side. t

THEN the table is tilted back till I’m laying down and the doc says “now roll over on your tummy away from me.”  so I do.  and he says  “keep rolling to your back”  so I do.   then he says  “now roll the other way”   OY.  so I do.  and i’m in this skimpy gown riding up… UGH….

then we have some more pictures

then we have me lay on my tummy and DRINK ON MY TUMMY… UGH

then they took some xrays…  and the one girl was having a hard time finding my hip bones… so she was poking me looking for my hips.  UMMM hello   FAT CHICK here.  rots o’ ruck….    but then that was done…)

so then  I went to get brian but first I stopped at Royal farms and I got gas  It’s back to $2.00 per gallon. ugh.  I got a coffee and creamer (my big treat) and a bagel with grilled onions, lettuce tomato ham cheese and egg.  YUMMY.

we went to the Cardiologist and both had work ups.  The Cardiologist has opted to have us both have Echos (even though I had one 2 years ago) and medically induced stress tests. UGH.  we will have those on the 13th.  oh yuck!

then i took brian to royal farms and got more coffee and he got stuff that i’m not discussing.

while at the cardio doc we got a call from the school that girl child had given blood this morning and did not fare well (she was lightheaded) would i come get her.  I left brian at work and went to get girl child.

we went to the pet store and got the dog food

we went to giant but chobani was not on sale so I got nothing

we went to walmart and could not find what we wanted either

so we came home.

and i napped on the couch.

then i made dinner.

now i eat it.

Good Morning.  I can’t believe it’s ONLY TUESDAY. I swear last night I thought it was already Tuesday.  It’s going to be a long long week.

I’m feeling FAT this morning.  and well I should.  I am fat.  I just want this surgery so badly already. Brian was a bit difficult this morning because he has a test this morning that he has to go to without me and his comfort level is challenged.  I’m sorry.  Suck it up big boy.  YOU WANTED THIS.  I don’t care if you don’t understand WHY you have to have your legs ultrasounded.  THE DOCTOR UNDERSTANDS and that’s why I’m paying him the big bucks.  Don’t make this any more difficult for me than it already is.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Brian but OMG my life would be so in a different place if he was not my husband/partner.

He’s very draining.  I am hoping that with the WLS that drain will become less and less as he learns to take better care of himself.  I am hoping that with the WLS he will have energy and drive.    He takes so much from me emotionally and physically.  And I knew this when I moved in with him, but on the days he’s grumpy it is SO HARD to remember I do this by choice.    I swear he has no lunch today because he didn’t make one. I didn’t do it for him either.  I do enough.   UGH.  Sometimes he makes it hard to want to do this.

Oh well.   Today I will work 10 hours yet again.  I’m trying so hard to get as much credit in as I can and use as little leave as I can.  Does not matter I’m still using Leave.

I’m really pleased with how this site is coming out.  I know it’s hard for some folks to navigate but once they get the hang of it, it should be easy.

I”m also pleased with the fact that i’m walking about 3 miles 5 days a week.  we can do one lap (just short of 1/4 mile) in just over 4 minutes and that’s at a conversational pace.  If  I was alone with the ipod on fast musice i could do it faster.  I just pray my ankle holds up.

ETA:

I walked today.  NOT as much as I would have liked.  I think people do tend to walk more with others. I know I walk more with Lew than I do when alone. It’s a comfort level.  At work when you walk alone everyone knows you are exercising.  When you walk with someone else you could be brainstorming. besides two other folks from my branch were walking and the guy makes me crazy uncomfortable and the chick he was walking with is new and has NO CLUE what a lech he is… and we can’t tell her.  how sad.

I’m also HUNGRY today a bit. some of it being head hunger.   trying to drink enough.  I went to make a mini single serving bag of  Orville Redenbacher’s Smart Pop and the bag had ONE kernnel in it. and nothing else.  it was weird.  So I called them to report it and they said they would send me some product coupons.

ok i’ve walked. I’ve had my drinks.  time for popcorn.

Good Morning!

It’s Monday. It’s windy and cold.  I wish it was sunny and warm and i was independently wealthy so I could be home with my puppies… my house needs to be cleaned.  my weekends are too busy to get that done.  I’m late with my post this morning because I was working hard on my F3 logs.  Food, Fluid and Fitness!  I think I finally got it set how I’m going to work it.  Since I don’t have collapsible menus it will be a bit heavy (must talk to Aaron about this) on the link sidebar but I think it will be ok.  first I list all the MONTHS and on that page you click on a month and it will take you to a page that lists all the dates in that month At that page you can click on a date and it will take you to that day’s menus!  Like I said if I could set up the menus to drop down on the pages it would be even cooler.  I will ask the theme developer about that.

I’ve lost my fonts and sizing.  Waiting for Aaron to help me with that.

Dog News:

Harley’s  butt is higher than his head.  This is clear indication that we are in a serious growth spurt.  UGH.  He is going to be a big boy.  Hannah seems much more comfortable now that she’s back on meds.  I hope this clears up her problem.

Oh well,  back to work….

Good Morning! Still a gray day here. Today is a good day if you like gray chilly spring days. I slept on the couch. Brian slept on the other couch. Dogs slept with us. And let me sleep till 8:30 which was good since I did not get home till after 1 and then there was the whole ‘take off the face’ time… I think that’s more why I don’t wear makeup daily, it’s a pain to take it off…

My food is way off. The house is a mess. Girl child will empty the dishwasher and do some laundry for me today. I’m a bit frustrated with the blog right now. I have to type in Word to make it look like I want. I lost some of my editing stuff. I’ll talk to Aaron later on.

I think the site is doing well. I’m rather pleased with the FORUM and I am sure there are many other options I have available.

Last night was fun. I met a bunch of new friends. And we danced and laughed and I think this will be a regular event for me now. A bit far for me but not too bad. Thank goodness I have a Garmin GPS. I never would have found it without my Garmin. Yay for a Garmin! I feel much safer with it. You just plug in the address you want, and it tells you how to get there.

When you are done, you punch the “go home” button and it gets you home.  Just takes so much stress off my plate.

So now we are getting ready to go game for the afternoon.  Gaming is a good thing.   we play all sorts of fun stuff.  not sure what we are going to play today and I’m not sure what’s for dinner yet either.  or lunch or breakfast for that matter.

ETA:

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