Posts Tagged ‘Dogs’

15
Apr

A new day a New beginning

   Posted by: Nessa    in Dogs, Friends, Mental Health, RandomNESS, Web Site

Hi OH HI….  Hello….  HI THERE!   (do you speak dog?  cause that’s how I talk to the pups…)

It’s THURSDAY…. a bright sun-shiny spring day in Baltimore… which is about as good as I can come up with.

Today is LUNCH WITH THE BFF…  that’s how the invite came…   love that girl. have for nearly 20 years…. long before she loved me I knew we would be buds… she’s saved my life a few times in every sense of the word…   I would travel almost anywhere for her…  oh wait, I have….  the ADD tour of the south 2 summers ago was one of my favorite vacations ever.   TEN days in a VAN with her… driving from city to city to get some furniture to her darling daughter in TEXAS….  this trip involved a pilgrimage to GRACELAND… oh and drunk dialing my darling husband from NOLA  but that’s another story for another time…

So there was a blow up at southbeachfriends yesterday.  My fault.  Truly.  I was snarky.   Yes I was.   BUT I really feel that I was snarky BACK.    The key is at least I ADMIT to being a bitch….  an evil SNARKY bitch while those that I snarked at think they did nothing wrong.  How sad for those that live in imaginary worlds where they are wanted.  NO ONE BELONGS WHERE THEY’RE NOT WANTED  (I’ve got that song on right now… What You Didn’t Say) I love Mary Chapin Carpenter and have for years and years and years.   She was my gateway to Country Music.

Who invented the word SNARKY???  it’s such a good word.   Ok I looked it up. It’s a 1906 british slang term from  1866 SNARK…  meaning irritable who knew?   I thought it was an internet thing…  as now it’s used to mean a cranky response… as in  NESSA was SNARKY to  <insert the name of whomever I was snarky to today> when she said <insert my most passive/aggressive mean spirited comment here>.

Sadly for folks  I’m always snarky when I OWN THE SITE and can do so.     What’s really sad is that I’m not even going to the site today.   Not cause I’m afraid to see what was said   who the hell cares what they think.  I’m not going because I’m waiting to calm down enough to just be able to say “WHATEVER” to them.

The truth is there are several people at  SBF that I don’t want there but since I can’t see a reason to remove them other than I don’t like their motives, I can’t justify it.  At least not in my mind.    Not that they don’t think I will remove them.  AND that is the KEY to why they are the way they are.  THEY HAVE NO CLUE WHO  I AM OR WHAT I’M ABOUT.  How sad for them.

I know there are webmasters that rule with an iron fist and it’s my way or the highway… and they seem to think that I’m censoring them.   ummm  NO!  Censoring them would mean I delete their posts and deactivate their accounts.      Some of them are even attempting to  set up ‘reading accounts’  in the fear that I will deactivate them.   I f that’s what they think they need to do, I can understand why I don’t want them there, because they don’t grasp that although I totally disagree with their thought patterns, their beliefs and their motives, I will allow them their delusions and freedom AT THAT SITE.  Yes I will.   Truth be told,  while I OWN it.  it’s not MINE… THIS IS MINE.   I delete users here daily.   I moderate EVERY SINGLE POST here.  and will continue to do so….  Aaron and I are the ONLY moderators here.  But the SBF site,  well  their belief that I censor is just ludicrous.

I know I’m going to have to go to the site soon.  I know i have to deal with this insanity.   Today I do not. Today is send the Critical Patch letter day at work.  Today is not a good day for me to play with whiners.

Today’s health report:

There was no dinner last night there was noshing… half a protein bar, have a protein tidbit, got home had some imitation crab and some bacon horseradish cheddar then ate  pudding, banana strawberries and chopped pecans with whipped cream… oy such a diet…   but there was serious exercise yesterday…half an hour on the arc trainer,  an hour of yoga that left my knee hurting so badly I have an appointment with  the ortho knee guy on Tuesday… probably to ask about a brace since today the knee is feeling much better… yesterday I thought for sure I was going to need surgery. I know i have a misplaced Baker’s Cyst and a partially torn meniscus which may or may not now be totally torn due to use…  SERIOUS use…  Yoga three times a week is really stressing the knee but I need the YOGA so I can walk the rest of the week…. and to keep my brain sane…  I do have some transfer addiction clearly…

I would do a yoga class every morning if they offered it at the gym…

oh the scale this morning:  185.4.   amazing.  it was 189 when i went to bed.  WHY I got on the scale last night I have no idea.   but i did and i expected 187 or so this morning… Yay me!

today:

commute:  click/designer whey/milk/coffee

breakfast:   none

lunch:  applebees with donna

snack:  cheese or protein bar or both half a banana

dinner:  no clue

snack:  dried fruit I”m sure no potty this morning.

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2
Apr

Ramblings, musings, NSVs

   Posted by: Nessa    in Dogs, Exercise, RandomNESS

Hi All,

having a week of discontent. I think I’m retaining water… so I am guessing a “period” is due soon. I never know.

Ankle has been bothering me but i did Yoga this morning. I did skip body pump and cardio last night. Took Harley to the vet. Dang dog gained 7 pounds and is now 101.4 which means I have to give him for over 100 pounds meds… sadly he’s NOT fat at all so he doesn’t need to lose… and he’s still growing. I’m thinking when all is said and done he’ll top out around 115 or so… not bad but still small for a newf…. he’s really filling out nicely…. he needs grooming BADLY but the vet was $600 this month.. sheesh…

:sadscale: 191.6 this morning. :cry: not that I have to fet much… I had major NSV this morning:

1. a denim skirt i bought last fall and never got around to wearing now fits. nicely. I was thinking it’s a 2x (elastic waist) like the one I am wearing today…. NOPE it’s a LARGE…. and it fits GOOD…. it just is so long… (like the one today… I look like an orthodox Jewish girl today… long denim skirt elbow length high neck shirt…) I’m like the BEFORE shot on WHAT NOT TO WEAR….

2. YOGA even with the bum ankle was AWESOME today. DID NOT fall out of a single pose. Knees to chest now means I can interlace my fingers over my legs instead of just holding the outsides of my legs! Modified Half moon… grabbed that ankle… held the downward dog, transitions are better, smoother, faster, LUNGES deeper… working those quads and hamstrings… oh and PLANK… still modified but just BARELY…. WOO-HOO… I noticed that this week… my strength is improving… my flows are improving.

Today I have to call best buy in 11 minutes and try to figure out this damn microwave installation. it’s pissing me off. it was supposed to be installed LAST saturday… they did not have mounting brackets… then they called last night and said they were coming today. NOPE they called at 8:30 and told brian NO… so now I’m trying to figure this out…

oy vey.

food today:

commute: protein latte with CLICK MOCHA and real coffee YUMMY
work: nothing yet will drink a protein shake later
lunch: going to Super Fresh will make a salad with protein
snack: laughing cow and soy chips
dinner: no clue

just not into food….


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9
Apr

04/09/09

   Posted by: Nessa    in Uncategorized

This week is going fast, at least for me.

I nap on the couch from 9-11 so i’m really getting enough sleep. go figure.  Brian is sleeping downstairs this week so i’m getting a decent night’s sleep.

I want to talk about elevator etiquette today.  In public now  a days it’s first on last off… (cause you are in the back).  In my OFFICE, men that do not let the ladies off first are publicly ridiculed.  It’s like our own little corner of 1950 still.    I’ve gotten so used to it that when some new guy gets off before me I’m insulted.

Last night, I took Toby and Michele to the vet with Wiley.  Poor Wiley… so stressed he was practically blowing a coat.  I drove them there but let them have their private time with Wiley.  Toby is destroyed.   Just like Brian was when Bagel was put down.

This morning the alarm went off at 4:46 like always. I know I hit snooze at least twice before i turned it off.  I finally got up about 6:30.  I managed to be at work by 7:30 but I did have to wake the girl child to go down and get me some jeans.  and I had NO GUILT about it.  I have asked her all week to bring up the clean laundry.  she never does.  so i woke her at 6:30 to do so!

Left brian sleeping on the couch.  left the dogs watching him.  told Girl child I was leaving and here I am.  I told them to take ham steak out for dinner.  I have to stop at  Bjs tonite.  I got my $20 dollar check from the BJs credit card.  for every 2000 points I accumulate I get $20.00.  it’s working nicely now that I’m paying the card off every month and using it to ammass points.

oh well I better go work… more later.

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30
Mar

03/30/09

   Posted by: Nessa    in Uncategorized

Good Morning!

It’s Monday. It’s windy and cold.  I wish it was sunny and warm and i was independently wealthy so I could be home with my puppies… my house needs to be cleaned.  my weekends are too busy to get that done.  I’m late with my post this morning because I was working hard on my F3 logs.  Food, Fluid and Fitness!  I think I finally got it set how I’m going to work it.  Since I don’t have collapsible menus it will be a bit heavy (must talk to Aaron about this) on the link sidebar but I think it will be ok.  first I list all the MONTHS and on that page you click on a month and it will take you to a page that lists all the dates in that month At that page you can click on a date and it will take you to that day’s menus!  Like I said if I could set up the menus to drop down on the pages it would be even cooler.  I will ask the theme developer about that.


I’ve lost my fonts and sizing.  Waiting for Aaron to help me with that.


Dog News:

Harley’s  butt is higher than his head.  This is clear indication that we are in a serious growth spurt.  UGH.  He is going to be a big boy.  Hannah seems much more comfortable now that she’s back on meds.  I hope this clears up her problem.


Oh well,  back to work….





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28
Mar

03/28/09

   Posted by: Nessa    in Uncategorized

Weird Weird Weird.  The New post toolbar is missing my fonts and sizing.  Oh dear.  At least I have my colors.  This is what I get for tweaking.  I did find a message board for wordpress and will be installing it.  Ethnic chicken will have its own message board… how cool is that???

News:   we lost girl child last night, I found her. Sleeping in her room.  Oy.  She never even told me she was going to bed. Or if she did I did not hear her.

Brian got home around 11:30 from race practice.  Not a good practice.  He’s already gone for today.  Since I’m going out tonight I won’t see him till later.

Tummy is a tad upset…  I made a new casserole for dinner last night and it sucked.  Gummy, flavorless… and appears to have not agreed with me.  UGH.  Oh well live and learn.

I’ve put in a load of laundry already

I’ve called the Baltimore Sun to have them send out a new Sunday paper that was delivered last night (Friday) and is soaked. It never came.

Still looking for someone to take the table and hutch.  I think we are going to have to move it to goodwill ourselves.

My wrist hurts (right).  I think I pulled a muscle or something yesterday.

The dogs are being restless and annoying but it’s raining so they have to suck it up.

Tomorrow we are gaming with Norman.  Amy has something to do.

Tonight I’m going out with girl friends.  OY!  Must stop and get some cash before I go.  I’m excited.  I don’t go out with the girls all that often.

Oh well not much to really say today.

I could talk about my lack of control food wise but I am not sure I want to.

Did I mention that I put the gym membership on hold?  I was going to cancel but she told me I could put it on hold for 3 months (April may and June) and then I can get a doctor’s note till after my surgery and recovery to put it on medical hold till I am ready to come back.  With Brian.  So I’ll try that for 3 months it’s only 25 dollars a month for the hold.   Gives me time to think.

I kept thinking I should get on the bike this morning but I did not.  Oh well.  Maybe I need to push myself harder.  I know I need to tighten up on my food….

ETA:

Food has been very carby today

Fluids light

Exercise non-existent (I’m going out tonight I plan to dance some)

I’m home alone today that’s always a bad thing for me.  I really need to discuss this boredom eating with the nut. At my next visit.

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26
Mar

03/26/09

   Posted by: Nessa    in Dogs, Exercise, Friends, WLS

Still have rumblings of discontent.  So hard to be permanently perfectly happy in life.   Gray overcast and rainy today.   I’m hoping I can update the blog daily but I know as i get healthier and busier that the web will have to fall by the wayside.


Starting to really get into walking on the link with Lew  (HI LEW).  One of my better buddies at work!  Yesterday we did 4 laps (I count it as a mile) and then we did 8 laps later in the day (that’s 2 miles)  I guess I’ll need to add one extra lap with the second walk to make it a full 3 miles…  hopefully eventually I can do 8 laps in the morning and 9 laps in the afternoon and have 4 miles per day.  Makes me think at least for a while I can give up the gym.  Save some money.  I think my contract is over for now.   Even is we give it up 6 months that’s 600 dollars.. big savings.


Today Brian and I visit the Pulmonary Doctor as a step towards being approved for WLS.  A tad nervous but not really.  Just a bit stressed as Brian gets stressed and that stresses me.


I have to leave work at 9 and have no idea when i’ll be back but i guess I’m working till 6 tonite to make up for it.


HUGE:  we are NOT having Chicken for dinner.   LOL.   nope  just beef.  I’m thinking  beef, rice, cheese beans and salsa in a casserole.    Something like this but no tortilla topping just the casserole part:




I am always amazed when folks think I’m a good cook.  I’m not.  not really.


oh well, maybe more later….

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24
Mar

03/24/09

   Posted by: Nessa    in Dogs, Family, Uncategorized

I never ever know what to say in my posts.  I guess that’s going to have to change yes?

What’s this site about?  Well it’s more than a blog.  “but it sure looks like a blog doesn’t it?” you ask.


Well yeah it does,  but that doesn’t make it less than what it is.  It’s a journey.  Not sure yet what it’s a journey to but then the trip should be a blast.

Currently  there  are several things going on in my life.   Running a webiste  for South Beach Dieters.  South Beach Friends Message Board which of course started as an offshoot of a board that we all met on.  We were all following South Beach Diet (me included) and had one of the ongoing  ‘vets are so mean to newbies fights’ and someone said ‘if you all wanna be so mean why not go start your own board?’


So I did! So there!  Of course I never imagined it would turn into a true domain with users finding us on Google! I figured it would be 25 friends whining and bitching about how idiots try to change the diet and then complain when it doesn’t work.


I still feel that way.   that SBD works.  and it works well.  For some people.  For me not so well.  for people like me not so well.


so I’m going to change my life.  but more about that later.


Other  things I have to deal with  Children.  I have 3.  2 boys and a girl.


the boys:


Older Son (OS) is almost 25.  OMG am I really old enough to have a 25 year old child?  WHAT? I’m NOT 18 anymore???  ugh.  OS is a special child.  not just to me.  He currently lives in a group home nearby and is in a special program for adults with emotional problems.


Older Son  2004


Younger Son (YS)  is nearly 23 and graduates from Drexel this coming June. he’s a funny kid.


Daniel Channeling Keanu Reeves


neither of them live with us.


the girl child

and yes we do call her Girl Child.    She is the bonus that came with the husband (more about him later).   Met her dad who was supposed to be fun and games but you know how that goes…    she was 9 then.  now she’s nearly 17!  and she’s a good kid.   A smart kid.  a FUNNY kid.  MY KID.  and I love her.  just like my boys!   I really hate that society thinks you have to physically birth a child to be the parent.


Isn't she lovely


ok enough about the two legged kids… now let’s talk about:


THE FUR BABIES


yes we currently have 2 fur babies.  We have Harley who is a 15 month old Newfoundland (Landseer) and we have Hannah our 7 year old  Pitador.


In February 2002 I got Bagel.  (huh? who? what? I thought this story was about Hannah and Harley?!– well it is but you need to know about Bagel too)



Bagelat about age 2 Hugging Hannah age 10 weeks

Bagel at about age 2 Hugging Hannah age 10 weeks



I got Bagel from the Baltimore SPCA after the Baltimore Humane Society Turned me down. (bless their hearts).   Bagel was  a curmugeon of a dog.  He was never warm and loving and was always very independent.  He did what he wanted and I had semi-control over him.  He was large and black and was clearly part Newfoundland.  He was about 2 years old.  I loved him and he saved me. Because of him I was able to finally get out of a bad marriage that needed ending long before Bagel arrived.  Of course the second disaster said “i’m being replaced by a dog” and I said  “yep” :-P


But I was working long hours and felt Bagel was lonely so I got Hannah.  Oy.  9 weeks old.  Fearless.  my little yellow dog.  Well not mine. Bagel’s.  He picked her out.    While Bagel knew ‘speak’ and ‘down’,  Hannah knew  ‘come’ and ‘stay’  never could get both dogs to do both things.  I’m not a great dog mom.


Fast forward to Summer 2008.  Bagel is not doing well.  I take him to the vet (now remember he’s fat because he has a thyroid condition and a lazy mommy.  He has Lyme Disease.  a BAD case.  A titer over 30 is bad. Bagel’s is over 300.   We give him meds and he gets better.  and then one day, he can’t walk.   Back to the vet we go.  He has a herniated disk in his neck.  We don’t know from what.   A week at the vet on

steroids and he can’t move still.  We make the horrendously painful decision to put him down on September 14, 2008.   <insert horrid sobbing and tears here>.   Hannah is lost.  Brian (the husband I have not yet talked about) is devastated.  I’m sad. yes I am. in fact even now i’m on the verge of tears.   But Bagel is at peace now. Waiting for us at the Rainbow Bridge


well we felt lost so we contacted Donna at Autumn Acres Rescue because I had previously done some transport for her. and asked about a Landseer puppy.  A male.  She happened to have 2.  Dallas and Phoenix.   Brothers.   I could NOT take both.  (which is good because Phoenix is in an awesome home in upstate New York).  I took Dallas.  But we changed his name to Harley.


He was ten months old when we got him that was 5 months ago.  He’s still skittish but he’s doing much much better. and he’s growing.  he was 78 pounds when we got him.  he’s up to 96 pounds and he’s a delight.    Every day in every way it gets better.


Now Brian (again with the husband) wants A MASTIFF.   OY.  we live in a townhouse for goodness sake.   Maybe next year.


The Husband


Met Brian online in an AOL Chat room around Thanksgiving 2002.   Met him at Betty and Jakes Bar about a week later.  He was a player.  and I was ok with that.  it was fun and games ya know.  He’s ELEVEN YEARS younger than I am.  and he’s a doll baby.   Spring 2004 he gave  up the playing ways and moved in with me.   December 31, 2004  we got married:


Nessa and Brian  December 31, 2004


The day was gorgeous 70 degress and sunny on New Years Eve in Maryland.


The party was great.


and now for the rest of the story as this post is getting way too long…

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